Lament (Please read it again)

    Lament for departed doll

Here once again I sit surrounded by creation. By a small stream of water that tell tales about my life's esteems that once were so plentiful and massive trees that reveal history. By musical bird’s that play haunting melodies, expressing their version of happiness. By laborious creatures that don't give up trying and a restless sunlight beaming on the leaves of where I shade.

Here I sit in the middle of nowhere all directions I look there's a road or a passageway someone once took, my heart desires to help but, who knows how far they stumble forth?

As I patiently sit observing my surroundings I saw a cat decorated in flashing colors distracted and even took no notice of me determine by her pains and a belly full of unborn kittens, she flagged by anxious about her where abouts.

Here in the middle of nowhere one comes to meditate and initiate contact with his creator. As I sat patiently a few cautious passers bye's managed to stroll along their path and I wandered!

I long to know and press ever forward too that extra mile to find a road or a path that can lead me to you. For every breath of air fills me with wonderful thoughts about you. Here I send you things a heart can do.

Everything in life is temporarily but the memories of you are everlasting. Your innocent smile brings joy to all low in spirit. Present yourself to me in ways unknown and I, will judge you righteous, for your ways are wonderful, beautiful, and charming. I'm the one who knows and will not give in trying to interpret them. For your ways, are signals to those who follow.

I have found my way towards you, with the little courage that resides me, and the valor I can summons from above. Truly I'm like a young lad in search of understanding, Like the birth of a new star awaiting acceptance, awaiting placing, seeking instruction, finding little hope, stumbling to reach hearts, and yet I weep, I joy, I endure, with many thanks for my very existence is a privilege.

Renew your friendship with me, just as the season compliments one another. Point my way out to the light again, lead my soul out of captivity, be the one to save me and I will be in debt to you forever. Compassion, mercy, reason, and love had a debate at the end they all gave way and rejoiced.

                               

(5/2-10/12-94)               BY: Raphael G

Published on

7/19/13 11:57 AM

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37 trillion ? we are awake ! (Debt is death trap) the last vintage bait of conditioned citizen

 Who pays the debt of a nation with 37 trillion in the hole ? Naturally it's citizens, but how about if that nation went into a great depression and started to milk it's citizens of it's total savings? Under a dictatorship some of the unthinkable has taken place, it's citizens rounded up for not paying into accrued debt and not complying with minimum of a down payment.

As the system goes into convulsions keep the eye simply, my global family and stay on mission. Don't be entice or be one of the gullible and sucker into temporally relief of a material world slowly decaying from within.

That new car...that new house...dreaming of long vacation...that new job with all the promising and strings attached.

Just image a student loan that will never be solvent, a new car 50k or 60K $$$ losing interest every year to point it becomes scrap iron ! A new home that will drive a person to the ground before it's to late and turning the time. And will say this who owns your mind and it's resources ? I'm afraid of what the devil can do at short sprint and that is good enough for him.

Keep your eyes on the prize and stay simple and on mission ! Don't give opportunities and shield all your defenses from knowledge already gained.

Let the light shine (Revised) *--*

 

 

Let (me) comfort you, my dear host-of-host...Holiest-of-Holiest.

I can recall how you felt cut to the heart as your covenant nation, which

you considered in Holy matrimony (figurative speaking).

They went astray and absorbed by other adulterous nations of phallic worship.

How through Abraham the faithful, your promise came into fruition and Jacob, blessed with twelve sons (twelve tribes) and how you organized the growing numbers of these. The Northern Kingdom and Southern Kingdom. The constant rivalry and treacherous acts of disobedience, the blood-letting of these offspring's. Yet your patience and everlasting love...kept you in mission and eye's on the prize, the greater outcome.

How you made calls after calls for their return,

How you appointed Kings 45 (forty five) in succession, 1117 B.C.E.(Saul first King).  In fulfillment of this kingdom covenant toward David, there followed a line of kings of Jerusalem all in the family line of King David. Counted from David’s kingship in Jerusalem in 1070 B.C.E. this kingdom with a dynasty of Davidic kings in Jerusalem lasted for 463 years, or till 607 B.C.E. So this means that, when we count from the year 1117 B.C.E., when the prophet Samuel anointed Saul as king over all Israel, the nation of Israel had visible kings for 510 years. However, Jehovah was the invisible King. of Davidic dynasty. Judges, Prophets, and finally your begotten son (Jesus) welcome reign, the finalist in succession.

You have overly extended, stretched the fruits of your Divine spirit, and undeserved-kindness.

I’m just a rogue (rough-man) of the nations, a pawn in the grand schemes of things…

I don’t fit your Saintly and Divine superlative yearns, but I will say this allow (me) to be a comforter, for those distressing calls not taken into account.

Your begotten son Jesus (welcome-reign) continued in the path of out-reach, to the nations tossed about  like  sheep's without shepherds. The heaviest of emotional sentiments poured like rain showers, Divine poetry alludes compassion beyond compare. How you wish to gather your personal property like a "hen gather's it’s chicks under it’s wing"...should I continue pressing the quality of your person ?

Jesus (welcome-reign) made good to reference your tireless work, and so he stated “if my father at work, so I’m at work.”

Through a selection of order, the Holy spirit commissioned Jesus (welcome reign) “son” and gave authority to bring about suitable vessels, for the final gathering. Til this day you have made (me) one of those selections.

I seek your presence once to often, and have not denied (me) access, this I well know!

It is through the expression that you have made right, so please make use of this vessel and hold nothing back, and take (me) home as you wish.

Allow (me) to reciprocate those distressing calls, yearns, signals and this slave be humbled at the least.

I don’t question your supreme authority or extreme, balanced power. I don’t need to see the waters divide, clouds of fire, great walls crumble, large armies defeated in one night, or Angel’s illuminate my darkest path.

You my dear have done charitable acts beyond my asking...in debt I shall be for life duration which is the eternal call.

Praised, laud, sanctify be your Holiest name (Jehovah=YHWH)

* Special quest (YHWH)


Rafael G Gonzalez
08/08/24

Early Blossom (Revised) *--*

            Early Blossom

In anticipation of early morning mist, curled up in her nest of twigs, twines, and thorns...evergreens, there lays dormant the most precious expression. Waiting the shift...daylight, nocturnal muse dazzles laughter through the air.

So whispered the jasmines, and so whispered the lilies, and so whispered the daffodils, and so whispered the rose (early blossom)...the tulips and carnations, gaily exchange of the guard!

Creation laud and praise the fine tuning of vibrational harmony, flower beds of color and fragrance chant, guide the foot-steps of invisible host.

Sunlight pierce the threshold of early blossom’ and so come to life, audience drunk in joy and laughter.

All the commotion invisible too the grounds keeper, all obvious to the host,

Sun-dance...rain-dance, songs of jubilee collaborate a kaleido-spectacle, only to the few ! Many are the blessings pouring her way, like rain showers to a special expression of delight...inspiringly awesome, Divinely crafted !

Seasons of change whither my presences...but between me and my host, vibrational harmony is root deep.

In the next resurrection early blossom, the garden shall play...and so whispered all creation in submission to a grand scheme.

Only the choicest is found lodging in GOD'S tent, and you're one of them.

A Divine host irreconcilable yearn to nourish the spark woven deep into the sacred spiral, for all expression to declare his glory. In the pipe-lines of life, remote in the sacred chamber God’s (YHWH) work shop, you are his love Joy ! His beloved child !

 

 A thousand in colorful contrast and the array of suited matches, would be at a standstill from a radiant singleness, the aura...the presentation...the lamp-stand of all seasons,

 

A host grand standing and qualities yet to reveal. 

 

 *--* I can't recall writing this note for anyone in particular, not even a passer-by so the inspiration comes from creation it self. The last few lines are the revised version for the real target in the corridor of time.

Published on

4/10/17 1:56 AM

BY : Raphael G

Truth

                                             Truth

Let me rise with the words of truth,

Let me descend with the words of the same,

Give truth for breakfast,

Give truth for lunch,

Give me truth for dinner,

Give me truth in between and the night,

Give me truth in my dreams and nightmares,

Let me walk in the path of the light, and of darkness…

Like fire ignites, energizes let the truth be just as strong,

Let truth consume me, so that my call is

not be in vain,

I find truth or it will find me...there is no way out !

By : Raphael G Blasini

 

 

Published on

1/12/18 7:24 PM

 

 

Written

8/13/25 8:24 AM

 

Rat race (Revised) be safe

 

Had bad day in the traffic this early evening...so please let go ! this rat race ! not use to such  type turmoil on a human being, I quit >}

I wanted to touch a little more on this subject matter. Most health problems start while and during the incubation period inside this encapsulation of a loaded weapon either way. Some can last a few years while other come to a sick bed everyday just to return into the next cycle of never ending health hazards and trauma. The human being is not meant to endure endless striping away of joy and true happiness and family, factors in which this become a main stay into life arrangement.

Some option to set-up shop near home and avoid this madness playing out in larger cities around the world and adjusting to a simpler life, but enjoying better health and quality of life. Some may even option to move where the action is better reasoning I can work 20 or 30 years then retire...but I say this, retire to what ? If there is anything left of that reason that started as a novel to the unlearned ?

Bachelor's Dream (written in the late 90's to Lori Fitch)

A Bachelor's Dreams

Show mercy towards me, soften your heart and make room in your treasures of compassion for me. I speak to you from my heart, that my greatest desires and anxieties is to have your approval so I, may exercise my goodness and loving kindness to you in a unlimited way.

I have set before me an oath that what ever becomes me, to get to you will be uprooted out. I have set before me an oath, that even the mightiest oak must bend for you are to much to let go by.

I belief that in every one of us there is goodness, and I relay on your supply to give me an opportunity to show you, the difference between he who has, and he who doesn't the difference between sadness and rejoice.

If I were to be judged, let me, be judged because of my words and not my actions.

If I were to be ignored let it be because of a time barrier and not because of persistence.

If I were to be considered let it be because I, speak the truth and God has guide my way.

If I were to be shamed let it be before my eyes for we all can grow and learn.

As the day goes by I, wonder whether it leaves a pace on which to follow, and as the years pass by I, become sadden as my dreams comes and goes and I, not able to grasp it.

If I, were to offend let it be known and I, will prostrate before you, let us meet as warriors for righteousness, reason, mercy, compassion, and kindness.

If I, were to be replace I'm slowly terminated by grief or failure, I'm also happy to state that very few could replace you, maybe none. For a fine companion who can find it?

Let presumptuousness rest in patience, in time, in love, in deeds.

May sound wisdom and discernment be to your enjoyment, and the words of the wise be your enlightenment. Dear young one until we meet again for never is a long time.

BY: Raphael G

 

Published on

3/13/17 3:57 PM

 

Written the late 90's to sister Lori Fitch...no mistake between 2010 and 2013 !

 

Special Guest *--* always

 

Sovereign Lord Jehovah, bless be your name to time and time indefinite...who is the mere mortal to query your Divine creeds ?

 

What can it see, feel, touch and understand...that it reasons I’m powerful !

I have come to knowledge among the elites, among the wild beast in the fields, also gods on earth!

 

A mere buzz in the wind without guidance is his boast, narcissistic self-absorbed-abstract-mindset.

 

What would become of men without direction?

 

Could it navigate its way in the cosmos?

 

Could it ever reach infinity?

 

Can it hold destiny for thousands of years in a standstill ?

 

Can it weave/mend life in a microscopic form and predict, stage-cast its unique performance, gifts, expressions, and host Divine implants each with personalize touch ?

 

Magnificent is He and script writer, from the realms far, beyond and remote, I hold presence as a special guest.

 

Almighty and Divine...grant me a thousand years and keep the fire burning that which scorched me, I shall wait and upon my return fill those sweet chapters in secret you kept.

 

06/22/23

Rafa EL G Gonzalez

Embodiment of love (allegory) very special @ least

 

There is no greater love then the love of sacrifice,

And I loved her the same,

 

Yet she couldn't get pass the fear of love,

 

for she knew it not,

 

in the absences of this love affair,

 

I summoned the ultimate sacrifice to show the way once more,

 

It kept (me) exhaustively waiting...and this it revealed !

 

Life and death is like a web, it is a fragile balancing act, yet to experience both is a 

 

blessing disguised in full display. This path is synonymous...one of the same,when   

 

the embodiment of love searches itself.  

 

 

No hay amor más grande que el amor del sacrificio, 

 

Y yo la amaba de la misma manera, 

 

Pero ella no podía superar el miedo al amor,

 

porque no lo conocía, en ausencia de esta historia de amor, 

 

Invoqué el sacrificio máximo para mostrar el camino una vez más, 

 

Me mantuvo esperando exhaustivamente... ¡y esto me reveló! 

 

La vida y la muerte son como una red, es un acto de equilibrio frágil, 

 

pero experimentar ambas es una bendición disfrazada en plena exhibición,

 

Este camino es sinónimo... uno de lo mismo, cuando la encarnación del amor se busca a sí misma.

* Special guest

 

Rafael G Gonzalez

09/01/24 315am

All By Myself (Eric Carmen)

 

Shalamar - Make That Move

 

Roberta Flack & Donny Hathaway - Back Together Again (Let's Dance Label #)

 

Tina

 

We are awake ! Estamos despierto ! *--* thank you

 

Jehová, Juez Soberano y justo del universo, 

Que tu corazón se desborde como una cascada fresca y turbulenta, 

Y que tu Divina voluntad se arraigue, en nuestra y querida hermana tu (hija) a quien tanto apreciamos

No te arrepientas de habernos elegido para estos momentos tan esperados y ansiados, 

Que con gran anhelo y determinación tu Santísima luz brille aún más, y que seamos practico en las tareas que nos has asignado,

 Haz de nosotros la primera opción y con una renovada esperanza, 

infunde en nosotros tus credos divinos y  tu selección de temas no ha fallado ni fallará,

Son piezas precisas de tiempo en tu reino celestial, 

bendito seas eternamente y santa persona,  

Llévanos a casa a la más pura adoración, 

donde encontramos nuestras consignas. 

Por favor, no nos prives de nuestros anhelos...porque queremos servir, 

 Envíanos...¡Envíanos con un espíritu renovador! ¡Envíanos!

 

Jehovah, Sovereign and just Judge of the universe, 

May your heart overflow with joy like a fresh and turbulent waterfall, 

And may your Divine will take root, and our beloved sister whom we cherish so much, 

Do not regret having chosen us for this long-awaited and anticipated moments,

With much longing and determination, may your most Holy light shine even brighter, and may we be well-practiced in your assigned tasks,

make of us first choice and with a renewal hope instill in us your Divine creeds,

your selection in subject matter has not and will not fail,

their like time pieces in your celestial realm, to indefinite blessed be you and saintly person,

takes us home to the purest of worship their we find our consignments, 

please do not deprive us of our yearns...because we want to serve,

send us...send us with a renewal spirit send us ! 

Published on

7/29/25 3:08 AM

Rafael G Gonzalez

 

Aretha Franklin - Jump To It (Dj ''S'' Rework) (Let's Dance # Label)

 

Patrice Rushen - Haven't You Heard (let's dance Label)

 

SO in love

 

Never new love before (More luv to U) *--* Blessings N Joy

 

Always and Forever - Heatwave w/ Lyrics♫ (unforgiven)

 

ashes *

                                         Ashes

I may look and sound broken,

But my soul rises from ashes in secret she kept,

It was the innocent touch and colorful smile underneath a veil, of many layers of injured resentful heart,

Hostage held a moment so dear,

Yesterdays gaily exchange has become the bitter haunt...praises the secret so much regard.

Today...tomorrow awakens a cloud of dust whips the winds with no destination,

Disoriented in the search, vagabond in cosmic riddles,

Deceitful as color blind,

The heart contends outreach,

Journeys...journeys the forgotten

 

 

Published on

3/9/18 8:26 PM

* I'm not going to do any revisions or touch this note...other then saying this. "there are many sad things in life, and it's gets more chaotic when pride takes hold and does not want to release". As a servant of Almighty God (YHWH) I'm no bodies savior...and wish I was through the many writings and pouring out my soul to the masses. At times I wish you never new (me) not, and at times there was no way out. That is the unflinching love of a perfecta's love joy.

(c) right

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Love notes of feelings so innate

 

Love is the most powerful elixir, the greatest of tonics, the most prescribe remedy, an ancient-alien formula, nothing like it in absentia, nothing like it when administered in the right doses.

 

It is the perfect gift found deep remote in the vastness of the soul and beyond. Ask me if I know such thing ? and I will say this...only in concept. 

 

Understanding the expression is my life greatest drive. One day I shall be filled in true holiness, in love with the emptiness that has shadowed me, and the expression as my companion for the souls duration.

Only for you !

The greatest expression of Love, is giving it all back to it's rightful owner. It is unselfish, loyal, faithful, superlative, Divine and beyond. It is patient because eternity shadows side-by-side, it is in firm relationship with the vastness of enigmatic strangeness we so dearly hold. Perfectly binding as the ultimate expression, the few get to truly experience. Ancient like infinity  itself, sweet and all embracing, soul searching as it makes the calls, the choicest subject trapped in its web...love-joy and jubilee, flowers beds rest.

Praise and laud the Almighty God (YHWH) to time and time indefinite !

lost date

 

2024  

* Special guest

Rafael G Gonzalez

Life's source

   
Thou written 2017 and endowment with gift's and imagination,

I would like to dedicate this poetic note to all woman (mother's) and champions in the faith.

 

                                   Life source

Women are like the flower beds on the prairies,

they enhance the visual and stimulate the senses,

like peaks and curves of the mountain tops,

like the valleys and evergreen pastures...a delightful kaleidoscope of reflective 

lights that bounce back with charm  and inquisitive intrigues,

like a meadow in endless rejuvenation,

a waterfall in parched regions,

an oasis of never-ending want,

like shades and shadows tossed dancing dusk-to-dawn,

nocturnal roost daylight dew native and foreign visitor's fragrance chant,

sun-dance, rain-dance collaborate the seasons,

She is a kaleidoscope of charm and chant,

She is like a complex maze and puzzles, that lead to a wealth of findings and intrigue.

She is a continuous melody' that resonates like the pounding of my heart, through-out the day and night.

Like a fresh spring breeze that last many seasons,

She is like a cascade that echoes in water-less regions, bringing to life anything in it's path.

She stands alone in the presence of many, in silence she instructs her audience.

She is an inspiration of thoughts, a pool of resources.

a true gem that host the endless commotions in the eyes of a grand scheme, a perfectas love joy."


God almighty surely out did himself in creating a fine companion, for his first creative off-spring.
 
(C) Right
Raphael G

 

Published on

3/17/17 3:32 AM

Rainbow (U R very special ) luv every day

 If I could just write her name across the sky

Expandable/Human

            Jehovah's investment for his treasure box, his work can't be denied ! Clic here !

 Who among the least or highest is worthy of your favor ? Just praise him (YHWH) Clic here !

What the normal eye see’s is what I don’t see, I’m going to get spiritual and philosophical. If one takes a simple rubber-band and flexes it proximity 50 times it losses flexibility, elasticity and eventually slaps. Or one can take the simple rubber-band and flex-it in full beyond the threshold and eventually it will break.

The human rubber-band is of the same function, we are in the middle between two highly opposing tents good/and bad, its a tug-of-war in which we are being utilized as instruments of choice and separated accordingly through the knowledge gained. We have free will to pick which side separates us, but not which side chooses us. The election by which we become the instrument, depending on which side wants it more. The good/benevolent reaches out and the opposing tent exercises contractual rights to do the same. For better or worse its expectation to remain expandable. Too what point ?

So there are two ways to break-down expeditiously or through momentum or accepting non resistance and eventually washing away without the knowledge. Gaining insight of why the ups /downs in our everyday struggles would balance the playing field, and the chessboard of player’s can reveal their hand more openly of the pulls and stretching, we our all subject one way or the other.

I have just revealed my hand of why we/us are being stretched thin and because of knowledge gained, remaining expandable...something will eventually break...and breaking is not that one throws in the towel, but through trial and perseverance access granted. Beyond the scope of reasoning why some are targets for the greater call or awakening is somethings that remains insolvent in a series of episodes I wish not to disclose.

Who is your equal, who is your rival, what's the opposition ? You the all seeing, all loving and benevolent, stage-cast the insensible like pawns in a borderless chessboard.

For every move made you're light years away and not one miserable among the mortals or immortals can access your hand unless granted.

this much I know!

Published on : 9/26/23 8:43 AM

Rafael G Gonzalez

Kashif - I Just Gotta Have You (Lovers Turn Me On) (7" Version)

 

Let's dance

 

Evelyn Champagne King - I'm In Love

 

The S.O.S. Band - The Finest (Lyrics) 1986 (ur Dee finest)

 

Fields of remembrance (Revised)

 There are but a few things that can replace those feelings charged, with so 

 many fine thoughts, it's like being part of the scheme itself...superlative. 

To engage the true essences and memories that invoke passion in all it's altruistic display

we rekindle the fields to filled our personal needs. 

Rafael G Gonzalez 

 

Published on

7/21/25 7:10 AM

By all means just praise him (YHWH)

The death of my mother has me going in circles, sometimes I just want to let it go so please forgive my spontaneous reactions, my writings, and over all my state of mind, it been very hard. You all deserve better and I will do just that in do time. To all my followers who have remain faithful thanks and also the emails. Face-book, Yandex, Google my former contacts and everyone who stayed the course. My brothers and sisters in the faith from the JW.ORG such love to all. It's been a real drain emotionally and the lost of sleep keep compounding what's left of me.

Her sweet voice still calls out my name...Rafael like an angelic host and I dream of her everyday since her passing away. 

 

As a servant of Almighty God (YHWH) and that relationship wasn't forged yesterday it goes back some time, time and space which is infinite on that account. The articles that have been written, speak very much about that ongoing relationship. In a symbiotic exchange, I have no reason to question the qualities of the Holiest-of- Holiest at work through his servant and manifest to the countless in that duration.

There are a significant number of articles, some which I can't past it by (me) in having a personalized attributes of things Divine. In a very humbling and submissive gesture, the poetic notes, the expressive narratives, the story telling, the description of creative design, the event of pass and present, the experiences that have move a writers pen to convey a host desires.

I would like to give a moments gratitude to the medium that have made this exchange and experience a wonderful journey. Google...face-book and the countless social media in the world wide web. The global family...nourish with complete heart felt emotional feelings, love, compassion, patience, and above all the opportunity to carry out the mandates of devotional fellowship through a father's yearn to reach out and call his fallen children from grace.

This year 04/30/25...05/04/25 my beloved mother pass away and there is a scream lodge in my throat I have to let go..... 

 

Jeremiah 29:11...“‘For I well know the thoughts that I am thinking toward you,’ declares Jehovah, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of calamity, to give you a future and a hope.

 

The strain your absences has placed on me,

the void I feel, the emptiness like a bottomless pit,

the wild fire that consumed your warm embrace,

the tender look and smile I could only decode,

your grace at times I so much over-looked,

a thankful giver without reserve,

a heart that never gave up it's pulses,

you stood like a tower in front of so many adversaries, 

a true champion I made you, before you even acknowledged,

you claimed your birthright and on several occasion cheated death and held still the power struggle,

 

 your spirit, your heart, dwells in the minds of countless and memories are everlasting,

from what ever stock-pile of energies your creator released you ?

in the care keeping you nest in sublime charm,

you kept your eye's on prize and stayed on mission, 

you have transition from a corruptible body to being in likeness of angel's...

your voice at times felt soften and pleasant like that of an angelic host, 

I will hold dearest your spoken and unspoken words in my treasure box,

in the celestial vaults in safe keeping, I shall follow or dying trying,

in eternal memory...praise and laud, sanctify, worship the Almighty God (YHWH)

and host.

Rafael G Gonzalez 

04/30/25...05/04/25 

 

There are tear drops that weigh heavier than a bucket full,

and the memory of such heavy matter carries a pulse until the heart gives out,

I gave conscience a chance for a fair trial and the pulse settled,

with a loaded heart and tears like lead pouring down the cheeks,

a lonely yearn fills the air,

 

a mother's last wish consents the soul I'm still here ?

my lost of sleep is the...lost not gained, for she is still resting and asleep, 

in the care and keeping I entrust that wonderful soul, 

as you read this I hope your moved by Spirit of Almighty and Divine, and that the softness of that benevolent being is made to rest,

may the finest of qualities and attributes shape our path, and that we become in likeness of choice to praise, laud, sanctify, and worship the Holiest-of-Holiest.

 04/30/25 to 05/04/25

Rafael G Gonzalez 

 

 

                                 Dreaming into reality (revised)

 

I have forged a dream that isn't far from reality and that is to hold hands with eternity,

I would feel left behind if an everlasting covenant wasn't the front runner between (me) 

and my Divine  being (Host),

My beloved along side (me) as the test of times, we made it together...

If dreaming is the counterfeit of reality I boast greatest,

I seek the person of a benevolent perfect being that is the total package to fill my inquisitive yearns,

you ask very little of (me) and in words or actions I feel so small...and that I am,

In the spirit realm your fights and battle-fields are unequal, yet I feel unaccomplished in my call, 

He is my life's missing link, in a complex web and maze without outlets I wish to remain, trapped in his infinite greatness,

the search that makes (me) whole and complete,

If there is a way I shall find it, or die trying... and return doing the same, it's the least I can do,

In the corridor of 'time and space'... in my absences, my heart and soul shall continue the race (chase) and one of them bridge the gap between (me) and Almighty and Divine.

Please allow (me) to praise and praise... 

 Rafael G Gonzalez

 Published on

7/10/25 2:56 AM

Controversial Truth

 I know that the truth is controversial, Jesus the greatest teacher who lived, son of the most high God (YHWH) is regarded to be of them. You who research Divinity and immerse in qualities of the Holy spirit, posses a well rounded understanding. This man yet a spirit, didn't have a moments pause under persecution for expanding the person whom he really was and spoke in plain sight to the common people as also the well learned.

knowing that the truth carries a heavy burden do we shrink or expand ? That's a question I like to ask myself, and at one time being absent of organizational directive, I can truly say that the greatest battles were fought and made "in the spiritual realm and not the physical," that should be an eye-opener for the receiving end.

I'm not going to go at history or scriptures, that's why you and I have the Gospel's, very well written narratives and passages, prophecies and parables, until his very death and yet lives (King)...I have picked up the pieces knowing that a call is place upon all subjects under the bluest sky or the darkest night, a yearn to be placed back in order and framed accordingly to it's rightful place.

The Almighty and Divine has not and will not leave any soldier behind who has left a lasting impression on his saintly person to recall in memory...this much I know. His loyalty is unsurpassed, his love unforgiving unexcused (everlasting) and present, that is something to embrace with all powers bestowed. I have a love affair and crush, and his strong-hold does not release, in millennium dawn eternity has a date with much ones.

"In middle of the night He, shook me"

Potter's vessel  Clic here !

 Rafael G Gonzalez 

 

Published on

6/5/25 10:19 PM

Conscience holds (Revised)

 

 

I place Almighty God (YHWH) as my witness, and stand before him with a clear conscience. That if it be through the expression bestowed or through poetic notes and other means, that I have tried to win the hearts and minds of those who hold (me) in contempt. 

Thou I practice a high state of awareness, I gather that Almighty God is not partial and that equal footing is granted to all who hold those virtues. The cheap shots taken against my character have no bearing...it is the actions that will eventually exchange and bring down the hostile acts...and this grieves me because I host no such sympathy.

The corruption of the spirit is the corruption of conscience, I have not embrace either one, as to being removed from the process of gainfully being draft back into the call that which we ultimately seek.
 

If controversy shadows (me) its the conscience that expands and that which broadens in overgrow seeks the proverbial "TRUTH" in all its manifestation. When one searches "The way"  Divine Truth' in light form, the controversy is removed. Martyrs and seeker's make use of the unusual, so that which tries to over-shadow makes no gains on the proverbial truth. So being a public enemy is the badge of honor that which thereof carries no shame or pain greater then the martyrs/witness themselves.

Just praise him while you can ! Just praise him !

Almighty Divine please allow (me) to praise, laud, worship and sanctify the Holiest name !
Rafa EL G Gonzalez

Published on

3/9/25 9:02 AM

God's (YHWH) outlaw (I stand convicted)

 

The-last-call Clic here !

 

For all my criminal activities (pass and present)**

I have a supreme Judge (YHWH, the Almighty Divine) a prosecutor (Jesus, the millennium Reign; welcome Reign) and a hand picked jury some whom I have labored with hand-to-hand.
 

The accuser a counterfeit defector, who has afflicted me from birth…..
The verdict a life sentence of love,compassion,mercy and undeserved-kindness, and a badge of honor for bravery, courage for standing up to a psychopath bully.
 

Stead-fast in all my tribulations, and yet those to come.
I anticipate this trial as a symbolic death-role recipient, my opening statement, “Satan you’re a beast and you know it, because Jesus the King said so! Your warden !
 

In all these years in shackles I can truly say...let’s do this all-over again.
Rafael G

*Taking on the judgement sit, would equate in usurping the authority of the Almighty Divine. A mere moral can't read minds, hearts or home in on stress levels. The fine shepherd...(not the super-fine shepherd), that The apostle Paul warned about; can see through all our short comings. I put my trust less on humans in high places, and pull more confidently with the fine shepherd !

2 Corinthians 4:3
if, in fact, the good news we declare is veiled, it is veiled among those who are perishing, 

2 Corinthians 4:12
So death is at work in us, but life in you.
 

2 Corinthians 4:16
Therefore, we do not give up, but even if the man we are outside is wasting away, certainly the man we are inside is being renewed from day to day.
 

Galatians 1: 9
As we have said before, so now I say again: If anyone is preaching to you a gospel contrary to the one you received, let him be accursed. *
" I include myself, if that be case...for that I have judge, a prosecutor and a cloud of witnesses."

**Being an outlaw for the cause (the conspirator, the arch enemy) of Jesus and The Almighty God has placed me in shackles contrary to Divine law. So I have become God's outlaw more then the average, singled out by cowards and bullies that have striped away my rights to defend or tried their best to make me hold.

 

But I will say this....

It is a heavy burden to speak the truth, but not heavy enough to separate me from it. The countless attempts have been futile and much counter-productive, even if it means death, let it be honorable, for this I have been called.

 

Praise and laud the Almighty, sovereign the one and only....

 

Rafael G Gonzalez

Published on

9/22/23 6:44 PM

Everlasting apologies II

 

 How painful things are,

and how painful things can be,

yet painful of all is the human experience as a whole,

each sorrows carries it's own tunes,

we can express that sentiment,

that feeling with great ease and at times releasing a destructive path,

like a raging mighty river,

self inflicting all goodness crushed, as blind like a binding attachment it could not let go,

that pain...that sentiment...fine tuned sorrows, that rage we so madly revere,

for the yearnings souls that which pain holds, 

the easily channeled coerced, set free the chains that binds and release the stagnant

energies and be reborn with a new image of everlasting acceptance,

my apologies for the things I didn't say,

and regrets for not being heard, may the words of truth stand it's trials.

Rafael G Gonzalez 

Published on

5/3/25 3:03 PM